Peace beyond all borders

A poem by jared behreend

Something horrible

Taco Bell Pt. 1

Pollination? What about God?

More Leftist Atheist propaganda. More vomit spewing from the dirty mouths of the nonbelievers. The sun makes everything live, duh. God put the sun there. Birds and butterflies and bats? Bats?! Bats hide in caves because they are too ugly to be seen in daylight. IF pollination is true than why is it not mentioned in the bible? Not even once!

Shit

Be sad and disgusting. I am sad and disgusting. Nothing will get "better" for me. I wish I could stop failing, but then I would have to continue to try. I don't want to do that. Try I mean, don't want it.

Before the disappointment...

Zippy

"The Cops"

Sure, I "hate the cops" as much as anyone else, but I don't have the mindset of a 13 year old girl. So I understand the difficulty of the job and don't blame an officer for my poor judgement. So you are driving 80 in the HOV lane by yourself while trying to take really cute pictures for your new boyfriend that you are in love with because he is your boyfriend and he is all yours and why should you have to sit in this traffic?

I mean really WTF. Of course there is a cop waiting on the shoulder and spots you speeding along while on your phone while also not obeying the HOV law, "What a dick! Shouldn't he be off catching criminals!". Well he is, he is catching you. The officer has probably been assigned traffic duty, so thats what he is doing. Too bad he can't be harassing suspicious looking teenage minorities.

People die in car crashes, they die more often at freeway speeds because heavy cars moving fast hurt things. Don't believe me? The US Census Bureau(www.census.gov) reports that 37,261 deaths have resulted from motor vehicle accidents in 2008. WA had 521, which is about a 1/3 of GA(1,493), which is not even half of CA(3,434), which is "winning". The most up to date info I could find was from the NHTSA(National Highway Traffic Safety Administration) which reports 33,808 deaths in 2009. These deaths have been dropping consistently since 2005, probably cuz that cop who "had nothing better to do" pulled you over.

In heaven...

whatever

Give Up

Someone restrict my privileges, this is a bad post.

Its not his fault!

Did you notice the 2 minutes of black out during the Seattle Sounders FC at New York Red Falls? Neither did I, we were all probably too drunk. 2 minutes into stoppage time the ball fell in front of Lamar Neagle after Goal Keeper Slappy Sutton deflected Fredy Montero's free kick. Neagle set the ball with his knee and let it bounce once before taking a shot directly in front of the goal. Perfect position, perfect chance with the goalie still off balance from the free kick deflection. Neagle's shot went sailing over the goal, not even close. However, what many of us did not see is that the goal was replaced minutes earlier with a 2 feet high 4 feet wide goal, corresponding with new MLS rules for the 2011 season... "rule 21 b: before the referee can spray lines on the pitch prior to free kicks in stoppage time the goal must be replaced with an outstretched fishing net on poles." While it may have looked like Neagle kicked the ball 250 feet in the air while he was within 3 yards of the goal he really would have kicked it in the top right corner for a well finished game tying goal in stoppage time! "It's not my fault", said Neagle after the game. "I thought it was a normal sized net, I mean i just subbed in... How was I supposed to know?"

Life, It Doesn't Matter...

A dozen years ago I would have wanted to kill myself, feeling the way that I do right now. I did want to kill myself then, I just didn't have the "guts". I still don't have guts, I also don't know how to communicate an idea without disgustingly overusing "I". But not having the guts is not the reason why I don't commit suicide, it's because committing suicide is stupid.

While I understand that there are special cases where it makes sense to do it, it's fucking stupid. Beyond the ideas of affecting family members and friends and abandoning personal responsibilities, it makes no sense. Forget that idea of other people feeling loss and betrayal and whatnot, what about yourself? You have the opportunity to do so much, not "so much" like being a professional sports player or a scientist or doctor or president, but you literally have so much opportunity for shit. Tons of shit. You can see beauty all over the place, even if you need to turn on a computer or TV to see it. You can manipulate just about anything you want to make art. You can kick a soccer ball at a police car.

Probably an improper start of a new paragraph, but I can do that because i'm alive. Sitting around feeling sad, letting my anxiety control my life. I'm feeling that, i'm choosing to even though I don't feel like I am choosing anything at all. It sucks, I hate it, i'm hating myself. I'm embarrassed all the time. I had another low moment in my struggles with a speech problem... Called Eric the other day, I had to call his "house phone". Then Eric didn't pick up the phone, his mother did, for some reason in my fucked brain I panic and can't talk. Great, complete loss of control. Feelings of being tiny and worthless set in and I put my hands around an xbox 360 controller to occupy them so that I don't repeatedly slap myself in the face instead. Kill myself, right? Thats the only solution, stupid.

I don't have a job, I have tentatively called about different jobs and struggle to talk or not reach anyone at all. I feel worthless, terrified over financial situations, still I can't figure it out. It's like i've regressed in handling my anxiety, but that probably isn't true. I don't think I ever made much progress, I just learned to avoid it better, and hated myself for being covered in sweat when I had to confront it.

Kill myself? If bad things happen to me should I kill myself? If I have no home or car then I kill myself? NOTHING. It's pretty simple, death means nothing. What is worse than being broke jobless and submitting to anxiety? Nothing is a lot worse than that, nothing is, not "nothing is worse than this".

Feeling nothing, ever. Thats dead. Wanting to be dead, don't.

Xavier Griffey

Ok, somehow no nerds on the internet have ever "blogged" about this.

In 2 seperate episodes of Xavier: Renegade Angel, a random person is wearing a "Griffey" jersey. Both times the person is wearing a Reds #30 jersey, in the 'sports sports sports' episode its probably the red away version.

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in the episode with the monkey savior its the white one.

So what does any of this mean? Griffey is clearly important, but why? Discuss...

Energy.

Energy is a measurement of work capability.

That is all that it is, sorry to ruin all of our beliefs.

Really?

Anna *******

Thought this was funny :
Women are Angels And when someone breaks our wings.... We simply continue to fly.........on a broomstick... We are flexible like that .


ya rly.

We Did It!